Mind Dump...

I have alot on my mind so I'm going to just dump it all here:

I really would love to be a performer- singer, songwriter, guitar player: a la Taylor Swift, Carrie Underwood, Michelle Branch, etc

I want to dance

I hope and pray J finds a more stable job and we can get on with the next season in our life.

I love being home (as much as being at our house) but truly home to me here on this earth is at my parents house.

Glad we finally got a fan/light for in the kitchen- it should really change the look.

Ready for Spring and wearing spring clothes

Want to get out of debt like none other- read: more content and start a family

I need to journal in my actual personal journal in writing

Through this whole ordeal I can feel J and I getting closer, more in tune with what each needs

I need to stop dwelling on the past and how I wish I would know then what I know now. I gotta stop this and just enjoy life.

I'm going to bed...

Every year I say I'm going to give up something so that I can regain my focus. Never happens. I always say sweets. Do you know how hard this can be? Inevitably someone brings it into work. It shows up at church or a neighbor gives you something baked. But this year I want to determine to give it up during the week. My grandfather always said the weekends don't count- LOL.

I also want to work out more. I put my gym membership on hold. I know what you're thinking- WHAT!?!? doesn't she want to work out more? Yes, yes I do. However I just bought Julianne Hough's cardio ballroom dancing dvd and intend to kick my butt into gear and do this everyday.

Does this cancel out skipping dessert and sweets during the week???

TO BE CONTINUED....

I don't want to box You in...

Why did I capitalize the You?

I left work shortly after 8 this evening and the song 'I don't wanna box you in' on WJTL came on.

I don't wanna box you in.

You've been doing BIG things since the world began.

Sometimes I just don't want to believe that You're BIG enough.

I don't wanna box you in.

You've been doing BIG things since the world began.

Sometimes I don't understand that you're BIG enough, yeah.

You turned darkness into light, keep my lamp burning.

And You were my everything, there's no denying that Your love is so amazing.

And even though my problems seem typical, nothing for You is ever too difficult.

You never had reservations, love without limitations.

So I don't wanna box you in.

This song really hit me as I was driving home. Though I have problems and I pray to the Lord about them, I almost have hope and hold onto them and don't really think that He is big enough to handle them and take care of them.

I need have more faith and relinquish all worldly hold on them and know that He is big enough to not only handle my problems but the WHOLE worlds problems.

Things may not always turn out the way I think they should, but really and truly they do turn out the way they should be. In His way, perfect timing. When I look back I realize this but when I'm in the middle of the issue, problem or situation I see through a glass darkly and don't see the BIG picture. It truly does work out.

God, You are BIG enough. I don't want to box you in. Please help me remember this!